So I owe you guys an apology.
I have been so far off the rails recently that I couldn't even see the track anymore. And then I got home, stepped on the scale and reality bit me in the bahooky...... hard. And then I was super embarrassed, and frustrated, and thought I’d just avoid letting you know how bad I’d messed up, fix it in private and then come back here once I’d lost the gain and I could just pretend nothing went wrong.
But then I realised that I was being a HUGE numpty. The whole point of blogging is to be honest, so that you can be held accountable and have the support to get back on track. And then I was reading one of my favourite blogs and she pretty much said the same thing which really cemented my resolve to come clean.
So here it is. 192lbs. Which is 2lbs down from where I weighed in last week, but still 7lbs up from where I was before! Which is very frustrating. But getting back on track has been sooooooo hard. I was eating with abandon before and now I’m paying for it, the cravings are crazy. I’ve always had a sweet tooth but it seems like its a million times worse at the moment, in fact I’m just thinking about food all the time. Does anyone else find this, that after they have been eating poorly for a while when they do get back on track they are left with all these cravings???
Oh well, I have a meal plan for the week, which is always a good place to start. And I need to start re-introducing exercise as well.
BUT, sorry I’m a little bit scatterbrained today, I just wanted to clarify whilst I’m embarrassed and disappointed about the weight gain I’m not depressed because I know what I need to do to shift it. And more importantly I know I can, I’m still down 30lbs, I just need to knuckle down and stop procrastinating (that’s a general life rule for me lol). Which is a good place to be mentally I guess.
Anyway, Part of getting back on track means getting back into the swing of blogging regularly, so you'll be hearing a lot more of my random musings again.